1Samuel 1:27

A friend told me to enjoy the time I have now. I know, when we have a baby there will be no more time for.... Well pretty much anything. 

The thing is... My MOST enjoyable times right now are spent with babies. I know, it will be different when I'm the parent-responsible for everything, not simply the auntie coming to play for a few hours or days. But, won't it also be the most amazing thing in the world to hold that baby and know he/she is mine?? That's what every parent tells me... I'm waiting to experience that. I think it will make everything else worth while. 

In the meantime, I will keep enjoying my life. I know, it's nice not to have to arrange childcare before I can take a trip, or go for a run, or to the movies, or even go to work.... I enjoy my life. I promise. 

But...."for this child I have prayed..." 

Life's not Fair

Thank God. 

I think I might have even convinced my six year old nephew. He's glad boys don't  have to carry babies in their bellies...

This process sucks. It sucks that we keep hearing no and waiting and hearing no again. After the hundreds of negative pregnancy tests, I had hoped the adoption process would be a bit more rewarding...

We got another call today... We are heartbroken and afraid to hope again. We didn't get selected, but there's another baby... Maybe we'll be selected for this one?? 

Or not. 

Yet, I can't help but feel grateful for the fact that I'm not alone. I am blessed with an amazing man to share this journey with... We sat at Cheddars and I cried. 

Together. 

My thoughts and prayers go out to a friend who was given two weeks to live. She has no one... 

Was a Foster kid, and her sister died earlier this year from a car accident. My heart is broken that she would be dealt such an unfair hand. 

Life really isn't fair!!! 

That sucks. It's terrible.

Life's not fair. Thank God. 

Bla nesting Bla

People keep telling me it's ok, I'm supposed to be nesting... Getting ready for a baby is natural... Pregnant moms can blame hormones, but I am 'expecting' too... Just no hormones to blame. I actually think that word 'nesting' is pretty annoying. Not sure why... It just is. Still I'm having fun reorganizing and redecorating my house. It's not done so I won't post pics yet- except of the baby's room. Thanks to some very talented, generous, artistic and hardworking family and friends (you know who you are... Shoutout!), that room is done.

I have walked into that room multiple times in the past couple weeks as it's been in progress. Each time I get closer to actually being able to believe that we will have a baby soon. Yes Lyndi, I want to see the baby too. More than anything else.