Last night we rang in the new year with Jesus at the Upper Room Watch Night with some dear friends.
I went into the night with a heavy heart, too much on my shoulders and worried sick about our baby. This morning, I heard the voice of God... He told me that every little thing is gonna be alright. I hear Him and I choose to believe him. After all, it may be scary to trust, but it's a whole lot scarier not to trust God. When God tells me that every little thing is going to be alright, I know He means it because He has proven Hinself over and over. Recently there were two major events that spoke volumes to me about Jehovah-Jirah, our provider... The first was our very own Christmas magic which helped us believe in miracles again. The second was an actual Christmas miracle...
A few weeks ago I mentioned to my teammate at work that I wanted to get photos with Santa for A's life-book, which we are preparing for use at the trial (when it is decided where his permanent home will be). On December 21, we got a knock on the door and 'Ho, Ho, Ho' it was Santa and Mrs. Claus!! We were delighted to see the wonder in A's eyes as Santa pulled developmentally appropriate toys out of his bag and handed them to him! He loved playing with his new V-tech track, soft fluffy teddy bear and Duplo fire-truck!
As the magical night continued, the joy in our hearts grew as we got to know the amazing couple whose calling it is to bring Joy to families at Christmas time. Sara and Glenn Westberry spend their time visiting children at TCH, families of infants in hospice care and they are the official Santa and Mrs. Claus for Santa's Wonderland in College Station! This amazing couple tirelessly serve others by bringing smiles, wonder and HOPE wherever they go.
As we basked in the after-glow of the night we realized a few things... The best part of the night was watching the look of wonder on A's face. However, for us... the grown-ups who no longer believe in magic, there was a magical realization... Maybe if 'magic' is possible, so are miracles.Over the past 15 months of waiting to find out whether we get to be A's forever family, we have held on tight to hope and our belief that God has got this. Lately sometimes we have found ourselves feeling discouraged and wondering if it will ever happen. This Christmas we celebrate the fact that we get to spend it with our baby boy and we BELIEVE in the possibility of a Miracle. We know our God is bigger than the courts and we BELIEVE He will over-rule any trends or tendencies to accomplish the absolute best solution for our baby A!
The Christmas miracle was a message in the form of a very tangible gift. We opened the mail this week and there was a card. Inside the card was a message and a check. The message told us that people believed in our cause and wanted to help us. The check was for two thousand dollars! Our hearts exploded with gratitude to the senders but more importantly to Jehovah-Jirah, our provider. Now we have some money to pay our attorney for trial. That blessing alone spoke confirmation to us... 1. How incredibly our little boy is loved, not just by us, but by his community. 2. That our fight is not on our own... We were called by God to fight for him. Therefore...
Every little thing is going to be ok.
